curhat2 aja (telling whatever my mind wants me to tell u)

To: RA, JP, FR, & Frends

setiap lu nyapa and go like "HI Calviinnn!!" gw smile and say HII. itu udh spesial bgt bro, apalagi ditambah "lg ngapain" and tos2an. And when I tried to say hi balik u lg busy2 with ur gng. if its ok with u can i join ur friendgroup???

that night 19-20 nov 2025, gw mimpi. lu lg struggling to live, life and death struggle lah istilahnya. poto lu terbaring di rs berada di koran, medsos, tv. seakan2 minta gw inget lu and berusaha bantu lu apapun upayanya. pepatah asing mengatakan "all dreams have meanings". apakah ini ramalan? amit2 bukan. 

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ahh bntr lg pas, hrsnya ga ngeblog dulu. 

tp plz la abis pas kt hangout ke mana aja. rumah gw, rumah lu, sms, sms, cp, ta, bsd, jogja, ancol, wtc matahari (bowling), jchicken, mcd, exotic carwash, ltc, rm, etc. mana aj gw bebas. and jgn lupa klo kt main ke mal kita uhhh... foto booth dulu gasi. jgn foto booth di timezone, time limitnya kecepetan. gw gbs rencanain awal2, gamau repotin ortu. strateginya, klo keluarga lu, ato gw rencana jalan2 ke mal, ajak gw. klo barengan bagus banget, masalahnya kt hrs hoki, jalan2nya bersamaan, di tempat yg sama, di waktu yg sama. And klo mau planning hangout, ajak ur gng. gw mau ajak my gng jg. biar seru n rame.

klo emg offline gbs dulu, minimal vc lah. gw buka dc call tu ikut. open cam. soalnya gw mau ksh liat lu sesuatu, mau offline maupun online. And... plz.. klo text gw panjang, replynya minimal masuk apa yg gw bilang lah. U tanggepin curhatan gw, mnimal iyain aja lah gpp. And plz i hope ur not a fake friend.

gw boleh minta ttd lu?? gw td bikin lembar autograph isinya ttd temen2 gw. this is a symbol of friendship. gelang n necklace ga jaman lg breehh. minta fotbar sama autograph gini vibes lakuin side quest.

feels like gw ingin like... kenalan lg ama kamu. hi, aku calvin, salam kenal... lu suka denger lagu apa? gw sih house music ye. 

uhhhhh, pas pairwork bindo kls 8. i want to ask. why did u come to me at the first place? apa ga dpt kelompok sehingga lu liat gw sendirian and u join? orrr, is it smth else?

pas retret kls 9. how does it feel hurting me? and why did u do that? no offense. just need ur perspective.

anyways, im curious, like pretty curious. what does ppl think about me? apakah gw... asik? santai? mr nice guy?? annoying? weird? jelek? sok asik? ky org bingung? gw gbisa baca pikiran lu, jd wajarlah.

So, just tell me ur perspective about me, everything about me, first impression, to what you knew about me. Thats all...

and to fredeline, aka juicey zorse. since she used to run a yt channel, i don't mind leaking the name. so uh, fred. you remind me of that talented girl from sds buksi, my primary school. she can sing, fluent on british, etc. she's so talented i ever got jealous of her. imagine u meeting with her. you could do a collab with her. DM me for more info.

21/11/25. 50 cent prod house just released another short film a few days ago. it was mid. but how did they get most of the mates and teacher involved?? I always wanted to compete with just one person, which was me.

22/11/25. gw mimpi we hangout together....

mau nampilin childhood foto kt tp ya ini public so i had to respect ur privacy. 

-CBT