Life update

Hey y'all. If you received this blog post. I need you to keep reading till the end. I know I'm not a main character. But please. 

Its late-2025, and it made me obsessed of this one very word... "Friend". It all started when i worked at school for robotics club, and this guy, (let's call him Rich) came and asked how was my laptop. And then a few weeks later we ended up saying hi with a wave and smile, we shared about phones, and he joke a little. This feels crazy, because he used to hate me since like, a year ago. Keep in mind that were not known as enemies from stage 0. We used to be friends since 2023, we first met during a pair work. I'd highly recommend doing pair works in orientation day.

It was Friday, 27 October 2025. I decided to write an email to Rich that evening, and never look at the sent email again, afraid of negative responds. The next day, i opened my phone shortly to check my WhatsApp messages, and i was SHOCKED! I saw Rich's chat showing up on my main page, and when I open it, he actually read my email, and he... apologized to me.. This was unexpected. Since today's youth church service I put back my phone, get ready, then open it again to break the message down. We chatted for a long time, even during sermon at youth service. At first we talked about phones. Then Rich asked me to continue chatting on discord, so it will be better. So we exchange usernames, and added as a friend. I was shocked he called me on discord, plus i was still at church. So while waiting, I asked Rich if I can invite more friends so it would be more fun. He strongly agreed. I said thank you to him. And to my surprised he said I don't have to give thanks. Rich said to just relax with me and He promised to "change". I felt like we hugged together, silently crying. But were far away. i plainly said yes which i regret until now. The call on discord did good, but it was just a few minutes. 

Mostly for now, Rich never reads my messages, i even had to remind him 2 days later. Now followed by my other friends. Even my instagram feed teases me about this. They all told me to just simply let go. But I can't let go, I'm not in a relationship. It's my friend! You said life is unfair, so you all should be fair, to MAKE.. LIFE.. FAIR!!.

To all my friends I knew. Please. Please chat with me, call on discord longer, or come to my house. If you don't know my address, then ask. I'll give it to you. For a moment, please keep reading...

I'd really wish we could read minds, not just me, you too, and everyone living in this society, i wish we all could read minds. We could easily understand each other.

To summarize all those depressing reels i get: Yes, I'm an overthinker. I overthink about you. Don't act like I'm obsessed, or gay to you. I always blame myself that I kept on annoying them, that i kept on seeking attention on them. And by all those stages we went through, I felt this friendship was special. But am I your last option to you? Please don't let me down by your ignorance. 

I used to be an introverted person, and i'm trying to recover because this country doesn't accept introverts. This friend thing is making my brain hurt, and how do I fix this? maybe... I need your help, by hanging out, having a deep talk, etc.

My mom and stepdad always said to me to MAKE SOME FRIENDS. because we are homo sapiens, the creature that could never live alone. By accepting me as your friend already helps me, and my parents (even if they said its for my own good). 

So... yes... I need to hangout together, anytime, anywhere. But since the Term Exam week will be coming pretty soon, we might do it later. Just please, if you need any help. I'd be very happy. If you don't mind, I'd need a hug. And... please let me be myself. I'll send dark videos to the groupchat. And just to let you know, I like to listen house music, no deep meaning, not a sad song. You just simply vibe to it.

Mostly that's all what I want to tell you, for now. I might add more if I got something more in my mind to tell you. And see you later.