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 Sorry if this entire blog is about me and relationships, or companionship. Really am I that obsessed to that only topic. Now into the topic. I feel like I'm going crazy, insane, to the point that i need to see a therapist (even i read it like the rapist). These lonely feelings every Friday night are driving me crazy, as if I'm addicted to companionships. Ever since I was a kid, I was lonely. I made friends with the blue elephant and pillows. We had fun together when we went to sleep.  It's grade 3. I don't really have a single friend. Well there's another lonely guy like me but I'm too shy to interact that time. At this point I got kicked out from a friend group due to a drama I caused. And just like that I was alone. I really hate breaks at school that year because I had to sit down with someone which they don't want me to sit with them. In grade 5 someone added me to a friend group then kicked me out because I don't fit in the group.  So, now you know...

Friendship is like romance for singles. They compete to have a best friend, because best friends are only considered to be only one. Every time someone interacts with my friend better than me, I feel jealous. The battle has begun. The struggle of keeping friendship together... I don't wanna lose one again. I don't wanna get stuck in a loop again. Friendship breakups were the scariest than a normal relationship breakup. Because it happened without a statement like "I wanna break up". It happens slowly as he slowly departs from me. It feels like he's cheating on me. So I should win this competition, but I knew I ain't gonna win this competition. Cuz I'm weak. I'm no better than him and somebody that interacts with him. I got used to holding in too much.

 Since my posts were getting personal on this blog, I decided to get a notebook and start journaling as if it was a diary. It doesn't have to start with "Dear Diary". Hope it doesn't get abandoned. ssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss...

 Lately, people have been switching back to wired earphones, Spotify to MP3s or CDs, new iPhones to Nokia flip phones,  Samsung Galaxy S26 to Samsung Galaxy S5, DSLR cameras to film cameras, iPhone camera to digicams. MP4s to MiniDVs, Video8, or VHS, Windows 11 to Windows XP, Minimalism to art, etc. It's like they want to time travel back to the past. It also a movement to bring back obsolete tech and fight for planned obsolescence. This is also great because I think it would bring back offline music stores that sell CDs.

 At night, I always imagine fake bittersweet scenarios just to sleep, and my social media just so happened to read my mind that hour. For example, I need a hug, hangout, mental awareness, etc. And I only think of that one single person, maybe my crush for example, would notice me. Now what if instead of a crush, someone I don't find interesting, including my current friends noticed it? Would that be not intimate? This isn't about romance. It's all about relationships, especially on friendships. I always feel like not having friends even though I already have. I always get jealous if my friends were hanging out with other friends instead of me. And that's how that feeling came. Friends these days feel so fake, really fake, until negative comments feel real and honest. Like I would want to get roasted for ugly face and big ass. They were painful, but it's honest. It's like Stairway to Heaven and Highway to Hell.  These feelings were like forcing me to want to have...

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So it's Computer class. I was known to be the most genius one in computers. I'd help most classmates to get their work done. However. I'd help too much, my own work wasn't finished, lesser free time, and sometimes couldn't help their work but I'd chose to anyways.  As I scroll thru reels at night, I've learned this thing called People pleaser , which means in my own words, the person who would help people without minding their own business. I wasn't sure about that definition, so I asked ChatGPT about what a people pleaser means. Which is someone who habitually puts other people’s needs, approval, or comfort ahead of their own, often to avoid conflict, rejection, or disappointing others.  Now in this case in Computer classes, I guess I am a people pleaser...  Don't get me wrong. I am willing to help others cuz I'm a nice guy. Why am I nice? Cuz I'm... lonely??? You mates gonna be probably be wondering why am I still feeling lonely when you ha...

 There are 8 billion people in this world. I have a God, family, friends, strangers, etc. But only ONE that I had attention is on YOU! I even stalk all your social media accounts in different platforms, I even stalk both your parents social media. I also stalk your spotify playlists, and made a playlist about you. Like, am I gay, got some mental issues, or just.. crazy? Like what am I doing with my life bruh? Don't freak out as I mention some characteristics of this person I get "attached" to. Why? Why I was into you instead of them?? Cuz your name fits you perfectly,  and you have positive energy, you're nice, kind, and friendly (as like we're friends but not really that close as a friend). The problem is... we're not that close. I assume if we're really like, really close, like best friends, I wouldn't care bout you that crazy. To the one I get "attached" to, I'm terribly sorry, I felt like grateful and regret at the same time that I me...

Hey y'all. If you received this blog post. I need you to keep reading till the end. I know I'm not a main character. But please.  Its late-2025, and it made me obsessed of this one very word... " Friend ". It all started when i worked at school for robotics club, and this guy, (let's call him Rick) came and asked how was my laptop. And then a few weeks later we ended up saying hi with a wave and smile, we shared about phones, and he joke a little. This feels crazy, because he used to hate me since like, a year ago. Keep in mind that were not known as enemies from stage 0. We used to be friends  since 2023, we first met during a pair work. I'd highly recommend doing pair works in orientation day. It was Friday, 27th September 2025. I decided to write an email to Rick that evening, and never look at the sent email again, afraid of negative responds. The next day, i opened my phone shortly to check my WhatsApp messages, and i was SHOCKED! I saw Rick's chat sh...

This is Exotic Car Wash and Spa. We got car cleaning service, from regular cleaning, fast clean, to steam wash. We also got other car services like body coating, tune up, oil change, and more. Follow our instagram for more:  @exoticcarwashandspa . And if you wish, you can visit us at Jl. Kh. Achmad Dahlan No.6, RT.005/RW.009, Petir, Cipondoh, Tangerang City, Banten 15147. Our place is available at Google Maps . Open at 07:00-22:00. Opens at public holidays except for Idul Fitri and New year.

 Hi, back again at The Life of Calvin, Yesterday, me and my family celebrated chinese new year. Now anyways lets get onto the story D-1: The Jakarta Floods One day before CNY, We get brought fruits for chinese new year to my Grandparent's house in Jembatan Lima. However, a heavy rain just happened at night and caused some major floods at Jakarta. My mom drove the modified 2016 Honda BRV during the heavy rain, right after we got into Jakarta, we encounter some floods, the biggest one is in Jl. Terate. Finally we got back and forth without any issues, our car just got a smoky hood, nothing to worry about.  The Chinese New Year Celebration At 12 noon, we got ready to go to my Grandparent's house for our first stop. The weather is bright. We had lunch as usual. However, only a bit part of our big family got into the chinese new year celebration because of the flood.  Next stop, our big family's shophouse (idk who owns it). Its really chaotic inside. finally no passing ancesto...

Tugas Dampak Sosial Informatika Pekerjaan yang muncul akibat perkembangan teknologi 1. IT IT bertugas untuk menangani masalah fasilitas komputer 2. Admin Media Sosial Admin dalam medsos bertugas untuk mengelola akun medsos sebuah perusahaan atau sebagainya. Mereka memperhias halaman akunnya dan meng-update akun tersebut secara reguler 3. Developer aplikasi/game Developer atau Pengembang bertugas membuat program perangkat lunak yang akan berfungsi di perangkat keras Pengertian Konten Negatif di Dunia Maya Konten Negatif adalah sebuah jenis konten yang berpengaruh buruk bagi pikiran pengguna jika konten ini ditonton oleh pengguna. Contoh:  Pornografi Informasi Hoax Promosi Penjudian Ujaran Kebencian Provokasi Bagaimana saya menyikapi konten negatif? Saya memfilter konten tersebut dengan me-report dan menandakannya sebagai "Tidak tertarik" atau "Jangan menampilkan konten ini"

 Google Sites, is an 'easy2use' online web software that makes websites for free. Just like WordPress and Wix.com. You can make some headings, pages, and icons for your website. But the problem is that it's not available to mobile users, and you couldn't even edit HTML. I used google sites for my computer assignment. I make these using google sites about my school and province profile. The problem is the free domain is not available. Which makes my website made here just a part of the sites.google.com page.  By looking at the comparison, it's kinda identical from the design. I couldn't get creative about the design yet, even there are a couple of templates, but just doesn't feel like it. Welp, i guess that's all about the review. I personally prefer to use Blogger as my main site, or Carrd which gives me my own personalized subdomain at least. Thanks for reading!

 Retreat is not just any ordinary school camp. But there is a character development in it. Today I will be telling the story about my experience during my Retreat session. Day 1: Preparation On August 26th 2024, I went to the school to get ready for the trip to the retreat house. When I met my old friends in 8th grade It was great and I think we're back again. We are assigned to the groups according the color I get in my nametag, and I got most of my old friends in the same group. So far day 1 of retreat is not really interesting, so lets skip to Night 1 of the retreat!  Night 1: Where all things start to get interesting At that night after dinner, we all stand in line where we have to get the password to get in the auditorium. It's like waiting in line early for the new limited PS5 at the GameStop. but we got moved back to the dining room for a little talk by the lead of the event cuz we're late for entering the auditorium. at that time I call it the chair incident. Why? y...

For those who prefer to read it in English please go  here Halo, kembali lagi dengan saya, Calvin. Pada halaman ini saya akan menjelaskan tentang informatika/komputer. (buat tugas sekolah) Sekilas tentang Informatika Secara spesifik, saya akan menjelaskan tentang Informatika bagian komputer. Apa itu Informatika? Informatika adalah ilmu yang mempelajari tentang penggunaan komputer untuk mengatur dan menganalisis data yang berukuran besar, baik data maupun informasi pada mesin berbasis komputasi. Informatika juga mencakup studi, perancangan, dan pembuatan sistem komputasi dasar yang dapat memproses dan menyajikan informasi secara efektif dan efisien. (Source: https://informatika.janabadra.ac.id/apa-itu-informatika-definisi-dan-penjelasan-lengkap/) Komputer Komputer adalah perangkat sehari-hari yang mengubah hidup kita sejak 1984. Namun, seperti organ tubuh  yang membantu tubuh kita bekerja, apa saja  organ  yang membantu komputer kita bekerja dengan baik? organ te...

I created the about page long ago. But my old version is kinda based and cringe. So I'm gonna revise it. Btw there's a translate option available in the sidebar for those who wanna read it in your preferred language Umm Let me start with a short story about me About Me      My name is Calvin Tanuri. I was born at Jakarta, October 16th, 2009 so at the time I wrote this blog I'm still 14 and I'm about to turn 15 soon. I'm a Libra in zodiak. I'm the oldest son of the family, I had 1 little brother. Also, a 'lil bit interesting backstory about my family. So my mom and dad got divorced since 2017, the 10th anniversary of my family wedding. And recently about a year ago my dad reportedly got married again. And right now we're living with my mom and my stepdad my mom befriended in their car community. Me posing a Dab in 2017 (if u don't know what a dab is ur gen alpha) My Interests So i had an interests of: Movies Music Art IT (Computers) Technology Comedy ...

Hi. it's been so long since I make blogs. For those who are new welcome my name's Calvin and here's my story... Saturday, September 2nd 2023. The most exciting, adventurous day of my life. from a school event, my dad's visit for a computer upgrade, and the most of all, A FIRE!!!!!!!🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥 Exotic Car Wash and Spa That day at 3PM, my brother, mom, and I went to my stepdad's own worksplace. It's called Exotic Car Wash and Spa btw you can check it on instagram. We play around in there, overnight. And NEAR THAT PLACE, there's a unexpecting incident I heard. That's right, a FIRE🔥🔥🔥🔥  incident. I rushed outside (oops i forgot my phone gotta get it first), then I saw what I always see on television,  A FIRE!!!!!!!🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥. So i stood there, heard explosions, and documented it on my phone. And after a few hours. 3 fire trucks came by the scene. And... that's the story... When the firetruck came by ...

Its been so long since i never created a post since 2022, there are many interedtjng adventures going on in 2023. So, i put that aside first and lets talk about the topic Robo_H0p3, known as P0STMA1L or we call it Robo is an animator and artist from Thailand. For more you can go to  His Carrd . Ive been a fan since December 2021. His #1 animation is Darling 'meme'. And thats why i rlly love his oc. Which i found from a community posts popping out in my reccomended page. But since 2023, he decided to quit youtube and start his new channel. He also deleted his old twitter account also, and came up to the new oc (but much greater).  But in 2024, right now. I started to look back. So i was desperate for finding that vid i talked about earlier. But i decided to call it a day and someday if i had the chance i will try to find it... Btw here are some old ocs. Stay tuned! I think thats all for this blog post. So i will update soon, so st...

Sunday, August 7 2022 At noon, we went to the airport to pick up my dad that arrived from Sorong, Papua      Waiting in Soekarno-Hatta Airport Terminal 2 After picking up we went to Karawaci to enjoy steak for lunch. Then we check out my dad's car. After that, we went home to take a break. At night. We went to the workshop, that time it was raining heavily until the toll road flooded. Then we went to a restaurant to buy food. Then we arrived at the workshop. After eating the food for dinner, we went home for sleep....